Full Pink Moon
By Tara Sutphen

The Full Pink Moon at 8* Scorpio will culminate April 28, 2010 6:48 pdt/9:48am edt (almanac). The time of thinking deeply, examining changes you want in your emotional and mental framework. Look at the facts about yourself. Are you lacking self esteem and where does this distinguish or peculiarize you. We symbolize and personalize ourselves with our culture, creed, religion and eras. We can feel lost until we develop goals, ideals and intention. Where are your values and are they being recognized at this time. Values are morals and sense of honor, are you in conscious contact with your beliefs and standards. You can wonder ‘Am I living up to who I want to be’. ‘Am I being true to myself in love’, ‘Am I clear on who I like, what I like and why I like it’. What are the real truths deep within. Are you numbed by disappointments, drama or trauma. Do you spout statements or go over in your mind how angry you are, how your family makes you unhappy, how you have no friends, or your friends aren’t real friends, or your job is going to kill you one day. Do you slip from real thoughts and emotional reasoning to frustration over others. Many people turn away without reasons why from each other, instead of keeping their feelings at an even keel. I see many unreasonable upsets started because there are no questions asked, no feelings explored, and no resolutions encountered. No communication or connection. Ignore your needs and you may be able to sustain your life for five minutes, five years, or 50 years but we do eventually have to come back to ourselves and if we’re lucky we answer to a few beloved others. You may feel like others blocked your life. Do you think it’s other people who hurt or inhibit you, or is it you who puts yourself in a position to fail or to grow.
This moon aspect is all about digging for your trouble spots and taking them out for a little examination. Those personality traits that you abhor in others and could be afraid are within your character as well, I know we would like to think it isn’t so. You don’t want to be like someone you resent. Search and clear up any history and issues. If you ask someone what your weakness is…many could write you a long list. They might not tell you to your face, but we all know that people judge us for our strengths and weakness’. We shouldn’t really care about someone else’s opinion unless it genuinely helps us achieve greater things in ourselves. You may have a few bad habits though needing to be discarded. Why do you hold onto restrictions. Are you afraid of change, or are you changing too rapidly in your life and can’t stabilize. Mental illness and stress can start as bad habits. Think of others and their complaints or fear. Fear of love, being hurt in love, not being good enough, not being strong enough, body image, job image, self confidence issues, unhappiness, the list can be long. And at this moon we will look at the uglies we need to reform, as we know what strengths we seek. Passion, Pleasure and Personal Power are our goals. How are we going to learn to love, to the depths of the universe. How are we going to learn to succeed, to the highest plateau of the earth. How are we going to learn to be wise and overcome all obstacles, we stretch until we get it right.
Journal Questions:
Give yourself permission to write out unsavory characteristics about yourself. You don’t have to share them with anyone. It is up to you to make yourself aware of what you may need to change? Think of ways to change gracefully. What do you perceive as your ‘uglies’? Bad temper, rotten self image, putting down others, unhappy, ungracious, condescending, cunning, manipulating, under handed, jealous, greedy, bitter, unreasonable, procrastinate, offensive, obnoxious, unpleasant, hopeless, full of excuses, can’t, won’t, afraid…Are these a part of self-esteem issues? Write out where you lost your confidence? Write out who contributed to your dis-ease? Where did these people hurt you, how did it help you grow? Why did you hold onto the bitterness? Did they hold onto the bitterness too? What would happen if you let your mind go free? What would happen if you allowed yourself to care about yourself again. Caring about your well-being and happiness? That you can form another habit of thinking you deserve a great life. That to create a good life, you must recognize what doesn’t work for you and what certainly might work, if given a chance to step toward success, happiness, great health or love. It may not happen overnight, it could be a process. Allowing the process to move forward, changing your viewpoints and fears. Where is your money right now? Where is your love right now? Where is your health right now? Where is your spirituality right now? Where is your mental health right now? Where is your living arrangements right now? What’s the view point on each? And how can these change for the better? Move out of your ‘uglies’ to be minor disturbances and pretty soon they will disappear. And your road will be one of creating life on your terms. Changes will only be growth spurts.